How I’ve ChangedPosted: October 14, 2011
We expect each other to always be the people in that picture. But people change. People aren’t pictures. And you can either take a new picture, or throw the old one away.
This weekend on Sunday the 16th October will be exactly 1 year since I ate a meal and drank my calories without a worry in the world.
This was taken at my younger brother’s 21st on October 16th 2010 (me on the left). This was the last time I remember not caring about how much I ate or exercised. The countless times I’ve looked back at this photo…it either makes me cry because I want to go back to not caring what I put into my body or it gives me strength and motivation that I can do this and be the person in the picture again.
What I’ve come to realize throughout my journey is that I’ve changed from the person I see in that photo. Today I consider myself to be mentally stronger and more positive about life. I’ve conquered the roadblock (ED). Not completely but I’ve made healthy lifestyle changes, I’ve anticipated situations that may trigger a relapse, when I have relapsed I’ve been able to identify solutions to be able to cope in the future.
On Sunday it’s my brother’s 22nd B’day! Between his last birthday to this upcoming one I’ve gone through so many seasons of change with my eating disorder and the whole recovery process.
A full year has passed and I have adapted to my current situation and surroundings and just go with the flow of things. So I haven’t thrown away the old picture but I have new pictures that reflect the changes and achievements I been through.
September 18th 2011 Blackmores Sydney Running Festival
Wishing You All A Lovely Weekend 🙂